How Much Can One Take?

I have to tell you that sometimes I think I can't take my family anymore! There is so much BS going on that I think they are actually participating on a reality show and no one told me. That would make much more sense to me.

But how do I start? How can I try to untangle this mess? Let's start with me, after all I am writing this thing, right? I am an only child, but I have 9 siblings. What? Stop messing with me. Yes, when my parents got married my father already had 6 children and 4 ex-wives. My mother had one child and one ex-husband. Then my mother got pregnant, my father got pissed, they divorced. After I was born my mother had another daughter, and my father another son. So, I am an only child of THAT marriage, but I have two half-sisters from my mother's side, two half-brothers from my father's side and another five half-sisters from my father's side. total = 9 half-siblings, whom I just refer to as sisters and brothers. It makes it less complicated.

I was born in France, but I am not french. I am half-American from my father's side, and half-Brazilian from my mother's side. I lived in Rio de Janeiro, Paris and now Orange County, CA. I speak Portuguese, English, Spanish and a little french. I'm a single mom and I have a 15-year-old daughter. I am 43.... and my life is crazy, but I love it! It drives my nuts sometimes, and I do feel overwhelmed sometimes, but I still think I did pretty well, considering what I've been through. But I was lucky though, there were several tragedies around me...I was always safe. Faithful observer, many times. Now it's time to tell what I've experienced.... it is time to change my perspective on some rather painful episodes of my life. After all, I survived.... and I am here to tell you how all about them.

See you soon,
Love, always,
Me

Welcome to the Club!

When I was a child I used to pretend I had a normal family. I used to think I was the only one born into a defective unit. Not long ago I realized I was just like every other person in the world. I also found out that every family has its secrets, and some times.... dirty ones. Many times people come to me to tell me about their crazy ass parents, or their rebel irresponsible kids, or whatever they want to share with me, thinking I will be shocked or surprised. Believe me...it takes a lot to shock me. The things that happened in my family were so unconventional, that when I begin telling my friends some passages, many of them tell me I should write a book. I think to myself, "Hell, No! That will take me years to finish!!!" But then I thought.. there are so many crazy things that happened in my life, that maybe i should write about it! Plus, I might also be helping some people who are also part of a crazy ass family but are ashamed to let anyone know.

If you have a crazy family too... welcome to the club! Let's explore this wonderful gift of God, and find the laughter among the tears, okay?

So..... see you soon!
Love, always...
Me